eng 101 diagnostic

    Elyce Jacome

       The threat of the violence that would soon become onto him made Equiano very freight full, but the despair that he discovered on his sudden realization of the distance from his home is what truly broke him in to the life of slavery. The human being can go through many various emotional situations but when pushed to their final limitations only one thing is left, despair. Desperation is a crucial focal point to the aspect of slavery, because for a people as a whole to continue on so long in such an inhumane standing must have lost all hope and will of a life without oppression.

         Equiano did not truly realize the true amount of tyranny he was under until he had nowhere to run to. The desperation of not being able to go anywhere after Equiano had escaped into the bushes to escape his mistress and the town people whom were looking for him. Throughout the narrative, until this point, the hardships of slavery are moderately easy to cope with for Equiano except for the loss of his sister. The desperation that he feels at the very moment that he is hiding is expressed with the paranoia that he expresses by implying that with every sound he hears, is something that might try and kill him. This unshakable feeling adjoined with his hunger, thirst and no knowledge of where home might even relatedly be made him so with hope, that he was went back into the house where he knew consequences were waiting for him. Equiano ran away because of the fear of being reprimanded from his mistress. He knew that the punishment he would now face were going to be significantly multiplied because he had run away and did not respond when was called to. Since the punishment had increased, it is only safe to imply that his fear had increased as well, but the feeling of having nowhere to go and no hope to hold onto it overturned the fear and gave him the ability to walk back into the house and face the situation head on. As Equiano lies on the ashes in the shed waiting for, what he can only guess is going to be a horrible punishment, he wishes for death to take him away. He would rather be dead then be in the situation he is in, the situation that he himself returned to after he could have left. But without hop, where would he leave to? The intense feeling of desperation has driven him to a point where all he has is death and reality, and he chooses to stay in the only reality he has because death will not answer his calls.